Friday, April 16, 2010

Rainy Days and Mondays Always get me Down

Yes, I know it's not Monday. But I've been in a perpetual funk since then.

It's been a LONG week here. And I won't bore you with lots of details - I'll just share a few.

My uncle passed away over the weekend. We weren't terribly close, though I did keep in regular contact with him. My sadness from his passing is more a sadness for his immediate family and a feeling like it's one more link to my own father that is now gone.

My husband turned in his two weeks notice with his current employer. He has accepted a new job with a much smaller company. I'm fairly certain this will be an excellent move for him. But the uncertainty of a transition has me in a bit of a panic. We've spent this week at doctors appointments and dental appointments trying to get them in before our insurance changes.

My son was approved for speech therapy. I wanted this for him, but the process is a bit overwhelming - especially when I'm already feeling overwhelmed and under supported.

I have faith that all of this will work itself out in due time. I've just never been one for patience and uncertainty. It's a gigantic character flaw of mine - impatience. The desire to control life outcomes. Usually life just laughs in my face and shows me that there is much in the universe I can't control. And truthfully, I've been more graceful about this since having my own son. I've come to terms for the most part that I control what I can and let go of the rest. Because really? Having a toddler implies a distinct lack of control in ones life.

But weeks like this I just want to retreat back into my soft bed and pull the covers over my head. So please forgive my lack of presence. I've inching my way out of bed and tip toeing around our home waiting to see what life will throw at me next.

In the craziness that was this past week I missed one of my favorite posting days - WIP Wednesday.

Here's what I've been working on.



Fingers crossed that the universe is gentle next week,

Simple Mama

6 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss and I hope that things slow down and work out well for you all. I totally understand the desire to control.

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  2. I am sending you lots of hugs and support. Loss of a loved one is hard, change is hard, toddlers are impossible... sometimes it is best to just leave it in the hands of the universe and have faith as you so gracefully do.

    Much Love, Marina

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  3. (((HUGS))) I know impatience and how horrible it can make you feel personally. Bless you.

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  4. hugs from turtlexiii. loss is hard. But on the bright side the speech therapist will bring you lots of support and help, you won't be so alone. As a physical therapist assistant, I know my job is just as much support as "fixing the problem".

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  5. Sending my thoughts, I am so sorry for you.

    It often seems to happen like this - change all seems to hit at once.

    Take care of yourself in this hectic period

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